ON NOT SPEAKING
Over the seasons of my sixties
and unwillingly
suddenly silent
no wonders spark in my visual brain.
But a reason why’s no wonder.
For so many years schooled
into naming everything
words and sounds categorize the world
and wordify my senses.
Precipice, for instance,
with its sliced peaks.
And acrid’s encaustic, that bite on my tongue.
Even blench
somehow leaves me paler
and more livid than before.
But there are descents into being speechless
for reasons besides pathology.
Although these may not seem any reason
or even be
reason enough, to many,
who believe only talking out pain aloud
makes sense.
Sensible or senseless
I know when shutting up is preventive.
or at least is less insane
than trying to be heard
by those inured to hurting
or being hurtful
when they indeed would rather hurt me
than pay heed, having heard me.
But if silence as you claim
overspeaks the chattering air
why do you refuse
to hear all I cannot use
my voice to say.
WAGblog: Dum Spiro Spero 
Yes, Pam has always been a wonderfully gifted poet and writer and more. She keeps finding new gifts as she moves along.
Also painter and folk artist, to name a few. She is too LOVABLE, how could anyone not love Pamela
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Dear Sami,
Thank you for appreciating this simply as a POEM…I love that you can hear and see all that I did here with the words themselves…Yes, I did use each one very very consciously, for instance implying synesthesia with those first three words etc. but it seems to me that you, out of very few readers, have understood, and perhaps taken the time to read it outloud so you could HEAR this and get the poem…THANK YOU!
and Dear Alaina,
I Am so sorry that you too have felt so very invisible, even when for perhaps this has sent you silent…It is a strange thing, that the more silent you are, also the less visible…I dunno why that is. but it seems that you have to make noise in this world for people to see you!
I hope you are feeling a bit better these days. Would love to hear from you one day! Take care,
pam
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I have been mute
though no one noticed
so complete
was my aloneness
A primal scream
falling in a forest
makes no sound
without ears to hear
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You are A POET, Pamela !!! Thank you for sharing this. Some words were difficult from me, as a non-native english speaker, Nevertheless, the poetic spirit is so strong my friend. You are so clever. Take good care of yourself. Sami
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