I continue to be assailed by the same demons as usual, of which i will not speak except to say that it is an effort more often than anyone knows not to walk out of here and away into the cold of night, that indeed i feel deeply (and am told by voices much more powerful than they should be) that i should disappear for the good of all. If I seem strong and resilient it is only my fear of death and a rage that so many want me to die nonetheless, but i feel a terrible resulting sadness that i can’t find it in me to comply completely…In fact, whatever life throws at you, one either survives or dies. But no one can possibly understand how much anguish such a conflict causes me daily, minutely, even by the second, even when I appear at my most cheerful.
I give you Rachel Platten’s lyrics, because I like the song, and sing along with it, though I do not in fact believe that I have any right to believe in them for myself.
RACHEL PLATTEN
Fight Song Lyrics
Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves Into motion
Just like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion
And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time
This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
(Starting right now) I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
Losing friends and I’m chasing sleep
Everybody’s worried about me
In too deep
Say I’m in too deep (I’m in too deep)
And it’s been two years
I miss my home
But there’s a fire burning in my bones
And I still believe
Yeah I still believe
And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time
This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
(Starting right now) I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
A lot of fight left in me
Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion
This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
(Starting right now) I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
Now I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me
SONGWRITERS
Bassett, Dave / Platten, Rachel
PUBLISHED BY
Lyrics © EMI Music Publishing, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Dear friends, look up Rachel Platten’s “Stand by You” song that was recently released, and play that too. You will see why i listen to that one a lot too!
Love,
Pam
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Sweet Pammy, Linda has said it all, I’ll find the song in YouTube and save in a special playlist as a tribute to my precious pammy. That the precious portrait you did of me hangs above me in my office, should tell you volumes. Love you loads and wish you all the best.
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Hello friend, I M sending you love and holding you in the light.
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This is beautiful, poignant. I feel it all the way to the marrow of my bones.
I am praying for you, Pammy. You are precious and wonderful. And I know that you really are very strong. Just like the words to this song.
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